I’ve found what I was always looking for and I couldn’t be any happier. I learned and became a changed man. I just didn’t imagine there would be blood, so much blood…
A Spoken Word be Someone Like You
composed by: Christian Foremost
I don’t trust words
We toss that ball around
in the field we play
And, I know every aspect of the game now
I know what I need
I know what to expect
I know how to get what I want
Everybody’s got their own tricks
Lies, flattery, false promises
Name it
Mine on the other hand are
truth, vulnerability and understanding
Risky offense and very weak defense
But indeed, very effective
I can spin my words like webs,
beautifully crafted to lure in my prey
Don’t judge me
Everybody else does this
Been caught and left to die a bunch of times
But I always fix myself up,
Crawl right back and design my web better
I used to believe that every person is different
You have to get to know a person
Give him a chance,
and then you’ll see something you’ll like
There’s tons of fish in the sea, they say
Well I’ve cast a whole net in
and what I’ve got all bite
So yeah all men are jerks
and I guess so am I
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The catch was plentiful that day
You didn’t really stand out
I was gonna cast you off
The minute you didn’t respond
I was just being nice and playing along
Matching your energy
and mimicking your words
But I don’t know,
you somehow reeled me in
You used words that were so captivating
I stayed longer until I didn’t feel like leaving anymore
You just had the most fascinating mind
If I looked inside, I feel like there’s an endless abyss
Filled with knowledge that you’ll never be tired to consume
The way you saw the world was so new to me
People are struggling and fighting for their cause every single day
The world doesn’t just revolve around one life
Privilege was what you called it
How I couldn’t see just beyond my own problems
And, you were right
You thought in a way that showed you cared
And you’re a warrior ready to face the battles ahead,
even with your own life on the line
I admired that bravery of yours
I couldn’t help but think
“How could I be someone like you?”
We can talk about everything
and there was no boundary in sight
You opened up my mind
and broke the limits I thought were there
You would listen to everything I said
like you could never get enough
You showed me your scars and I showed you mine
Never any judgement,
just fascination
Everything was possible with you
I went along with every idea you had
Always surprised on how I can keep up
Of course you were always right,
but I always had a point to prove
You liked how I always kept you on your toes
Never knowing what’s going on in my mind
Can never be sure what to expect, huh?
But it was always one hell of a ride
I couldn’t believe how lucky I was
Everything I needed, you had
Everything I wanted, you gave and more
Check, check, check
We did everything we felt like doing
I followed wherever you went
Opened up my entire life
I could give you everything you wanted
just not my heart
It’s not that I didn’t want to
If I closed my eyes and kept quiet,
Pretended to be a better person than I actually am,
You would still be here
And we would be so happy together
Maybe you should have listened
When I told you I was selfish
You should have ran right away
When I told you I didn’t care about anyone else
You should have seen the signs
When I was a different person every day
Even when I unleashed all my demons to you
You stood your ground
And held me tight
While I was raising a knife aimed at your back
You understand you said, because you were like me
From that I learned that you’re weak
I never stopped playing the game
I was greedy and with you I was always winning
I scored goals I never could before
I can see it now, victories mine to claim
In my delusional head
I thought I was giving you a chance
They said I was using you
How can that be?
I’m not that kind of person, right?
I was happy with you
But I still did not have feelings for you
You fit perfectly well in my life
But I’m not interested to learn about yours
I’m excited about all our plans together
But I don’t see a future of us at all
Guilt is what I felt
I wanted to get rid of it
So I gave you a bright day you’ll never forget
Then I plunged my knife down your back
I never lie
I keep all my promises
I will never ghost you like they did me
I saw that through
It was my truth that killed you in the end
You were waiting with open arms expecting an embrace
My words cut through your chest until it was open
I didn’t care about you even at our last moment
I showed no mercy, stabbing you anywhere else I could
I only wanted to cleanse myself
The truth will set you free
And it did
I did the right thing
I was smiling, victorious
Blood on my hands
I freaking did it
I finally won
In this arena of deceit and manipulation
Players running towards and away from each other
Nothing but a bunch of losers with nowhere to go
I have proven to be different
I beat the game with a nameless dead body at my feet
I always get what I want in the end
No one can dare stop me
My reflection stares back from the blade of my knife
Still smiling, happy as I meant to be
Do you like what you see?
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Epilogue
A creature appears in the shadows
My demon in its truest form
You were always just there hiding, huh?
I’ve been waiting for you
Reaching out a hand for me to follow
I gave my knife instead
No. I will not go.
What I did and who I was
Is not who I want to be
I would rather suffer the torment of my deeds
And not give in and claim to be the man you of me
Alone is what I deserve to feel
Just leave me be
and I’ll decide from here
THE END OF A SPOKEN WORD TRILOGY
Disclaimer : This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, businesses, places, events and incidents are either the products of the author’s imagination or used in a fictitious manner. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, or actual events is purely coincidental.
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